Mein Teil

ich_bin_gott89 @ 2007-11-17T11:15:00

2007-11-17T17:16:49Z

Seriously. Why do people expect so fucking much? I don't get it. Especially when it's to make THEM feel better. UGH. I'm pissed right now.

ich_bin_gott89 @ 2007-11-13T19:08:00

2007-11-14T01:20:00Z

So yeah, I said I'd elaborate on the trip so I am.

Yeah, so, they came here about noon on Friday to pick me up, and we drove all the way up there obviously. So yeah, we were just kind of hanging around her house for awhile, then we decided to walk to Subway. So we got some dinner, then walked to their dollar store thing and then to an Asian market which was pretty cool.

We got back to her house and her parents were out at the bowling alley, and we just watched movies and stuff. Ended up going to bed around 1 or 2 or so.

Then she woke me up at around 7-ish on Saturday morning, and we started watching a movie and then decided to go make Cheesecake. Found out they didn't have any milk which we needed, so we just kind of walked to the gas station and bought some. Then we walked back and finished making it, and continued watching the movie and everything. Then later in the afternoon we went bowling with her parents and it wasn't too bad. Then her and I walked to K-Mart and got some stuff. I bought her shoes. And then we walked back to her house and her parents were going to go out and stuff. So we just watched movies of course and some stuff. Then she woke me up at 7 Sunday morning.

We watched the Wizard of Oz early in the morning on Sunday and all that kind of stuff. Then we had to leave and it was a pretty short car ride home unfortunately. I wish it was longer, but hopefully I'll get to see her on Thanksgiving and that whole weekend we're off. So yeah.

Anyway, that was about the gist of the trip. It was amazing and I'm looking forward to many times like that. yup yup.

Love you Megan, forever and ever.

ich_bin_gott89 @ 2007-11-11T14:49:00

2007-11-11T20:49:14Z

Well, I'm in a hurry, so I'll do a more detailed report of my visit. But yeah, I had a blast. I love her so much. More than anything. This time it's different. It feels so much more special.

Anyway, more detailed report later.

ich_bin_gott89 @ 2007-10-30T19:46:00

2007-10-31T00:47:23Z

Hah. So, yeah. I pulled a muscle in my leg and i'm not quite sure why. Hurts. Pretty bad. Oh well, I'll be fine. It just sucks that I have to limp my way through school tomorrow in pain. Hah. Oh well. Life sucks right? Right.

That's all.

ich_bin_gott89 @ 2007-10-29T00:14:00

2007-10-29T05:16:22Z

Ahahaha. I haven't posted on this thing in awhile. Not much to update I suppose.

Kind of pissed off right now. Don't feel like talking about it though. Hah.

My life is boring and i'm pretty controlling I suppose. Mhm. I love it when people say shit behind my back too, but are all nice up to my face. Trust me, I find these things out, and I have more respect for people that tell me straight to my face for how I'm acting. Mhm.

Fuck you.

End post.

ich_bin_gott89 @ 2007-10-17T18:54:00

2007-10-18T00:21:25Z

So yeah, I've finally gotten around to posting on this thingamabobber. Yeah, last weekend was one of the best weekends i've ever had. I must recap this, for it was pure bliss.

So...Megan came down like right after I got out of school. I was so happy to see her. Then, after she got here, we went and bought Chai Tea at Mudd Puddles. Which was pretty tasty, and then went to the store. Got to spend a bit of time at my house before traveling to the Football Game! It was our homecoming game, and after they were talking about the bullshit homecoming court and stuff, the game started. We just hung around by the fence, and I introduced her to a couple of my friends. It was extremely cold out, so we left at the end of the first quarter.

So we get back to my house, ate some food, and watched some movies. yada yada. the night was over.

I woke her up the next morning and we went and got Donuts at the Bakery. They were de-fucking-licious by the way. I took her down to the river at some point and we just sat there by the river. And her being there made it even more beautiful than it already was. I loved it. we didn't even talk that much, it was just nice to be there with her. But I digress. We spent a lot of time at my house. THen we went to China House to get some food. Met Mallory and Brandon there, and talked to them for a bit. Then, we went home and got ready for the dance.

She looked so beautiful. Seriously. I couldn't imagine a more beautiful site. *sigh* but anyway. We took some pictures before the dance. My dad dropped us off at the dance, and then we just talked to people at first. And then we danced and stuff. Then I called my dad and he picked us up. Then we went to my house, watched some movies. 3 of them actually. Yada yada. It was a fun night.

Then on Sunday we went to my grandma's 'cause my parents wanted to watch the Bears game before we took Megan home. Well, during that time, Megan and I watched two movies, then we went outside. Yada yada. Went back inside. Then we ate pizza, and then we had to take her back.

To be completely honest, I've never loved somebody this much. I mean I thought I did, but...this is so much different, and in a good way also. I love her so much, and it'd kill me if I lost her to anything. I'm so happy with her, I feel so much comfortable with her than anyone else. I can be myself and not have to worry about being judged for anything I do. I can't stand the distance. but I will. Because I do love her. So much.

The sad part is, I don't know the next time i'll see her. And it kills me that I don't know how soon it'll be.

But anyway. this weekend was completely amazing.

ich_bin_gott89 @ 2007-09-23T14:35:00

2007-09-23T19:35:09Z

SHE DOESN'T GET THE FUCKING POINT. GOD. FUCK.

SUSPENDED!!!1!

2007-08-21T18:59:51Z

So yeah. I got suspended for 10 days for bringing a knife to school. FIRST TIME I GOT CAUGHT xDD

But yeah, I'll see you all and reply to all your questions when I'm able to get back on!!

Wish meh luck xDD

Byyye

Amp-Fest pwns every other show/festival out there.

2007-08-12T17:46:32Z

So I went to Amp-Fest Yesterday. and it was pretty much the best 20 dollars i've ever spent. Best show to date. I got sweaty, dirty, scraped up, bruised, and I loved it. When I got there, because I got there late, Nodes of Ranvier was playing, and I like them. Really nice guys. I missed half of their set, but, Oh well.

Then of course...was the best part of the night. Flatfoot 56 played and it was probably the most intense show i've ever been too. Got to hang out with them for awhile. I didn't take any pics because as always, I forgot my camera.

Basically the whole day I hung out with Dustin, Stephanie, and Billie Joe. then after the Flatfoot show we went out for Pizza at Angelo's in Sterling. Then after that we went back to the show to see Skillet.

OKAY! a little information on skillet. Sure they don't sound bad. But they're assholes.

They're extremely anti-social with their fans, they leave right after a show's over no matter what. They think they're better than everyone else because they're in a band. And they charge way too much for their merch.

7 dollars for ONE drumstick, when all they did, was go to Top Dog Music which is in Sterling, before the show, bought a whole bunch, and were selling them at the show. Never talked to any one of their fans. Like...I think every other shirt at the show from other bands (who sold their own merch) was like 10-12 dollars. the least expensive skillet shirt was 15. The most expensive was 25. And then, a Flatfoot Hoodie only costs 25-30 dollars. Skillet's Cost 40-45. It's bullshit. No on thinks they'll be playing at Amp-fest again lol. I hope not.

ich_bin_gott89 @ 2007-08-10T18:02:00

2007-08-10T23:03:50Z

SO! Tomorrow is Amp-Fest. Should be a blast. 12 hours of friends, music, punching people. Sounds fun. Then, Hopefully it's up to Megan's for 5 days. xP Thaaat should be fun too >.>; lol. anywayyy, Pics will be posted from Amp-Fest maybe Sunday before I leave for my aunts. and if I go to Megan's, there will DEFINITELY be pics posted lol.

Peace

My Life Thus Far.

2007-08-02T18:26:48Z

So, I figured that I'd update. No too much is going on in my life.

Uhm...I'm hoping I can go see Megan before School starts. whenever that may be.

School starts on the 20th, Registration on the 13th. I'm not sure i'm going to get used to this schedule this year. It's fucked up because we have 7 classes. It's a normal schedule. like we had in like 5th grade.

Anyway. Amp-Fest is coming up on the 11th, should be fuckin' sweet. I will definitely have pictures from it. Can't wait to see all of my friends and stuff there.

But at any rate. Megan and I are very happy together. My life...hopefully...will have no more tragic events. uhmm...just sitting waiting for school basically. Anyway. I better go listen to more music.

Peace-Love-Unity

ich_bin_gott89 @ 2007-07-29T11:15:00

2007-07-29T16:16:14Z

So..Another one of my friends Died.

Idk how it happened, but I got a message this morning saying "Idk if you were friends with Colton Paker, but he died".

He wasn't a best friend, but still a friend.

I don't know what it is with this year, people I know dying. But I'm sick of it.
Why the hell does it keep happening?!

The Most Perfect Sunday

2007-07-23T03:53:54Z

So today was pretty much amazing. Megan and I were together for about 4 hours today. Not nearly enough time, but it was nice. We got to go walk around and stuff. Held hands, hugged, put my arm around her. All of that. And it wasn't awkward at all. And what was really surprising. I wasn't all that nervous when I kissed her either. It was really comfortable. It was nice. I hope I get to see her again soon.

ich_bin_gott89 @ 2007-07-21T15:11:00

2007-07-21T20:19:23Z

So last night I found myself laying in bed thinking of Matt. His smile. His laugh. His stupid jokes lol. it was nice. Then It went to the other extreme. He's Dead.

It was weird. I was upset, my eyes stung. but I just went to bed. Idk. It's just weird.

Another friend of mine told me to "go die" and I said "If I died, you'd be upset" and she's like "pfft. No i wouldn't." and not in a joking way either. So *shrugs* Idk. It kind of bothered me.

But, on the lighter side of things, Megan tomorrow. It should be a good time. Dustin, Devon, and Stephanie are going to be there with me. and her two friends, Alliee and her bf Scott. But, hopefully everything goes good.

Another month, and school. heh. I don't really want it to start. But oh well. last year. then it's off into the world. HAHA i love that. Into the world. well, we live in it now. do we not? ohhh the Irony. anyway.

I'm done.

ich_bin_gott89 @ 2007-07-18T03:44:00

2007-07-18T08:47:06Z

So. It's been a month since Megan and I have been going out. And i'm extremely happy with her ^^.

We're not really the same, and we can joke around with eachother, but have serious conversations too. And I'm not limited as to what I can say or what I can't say. And I like having that.

We get to see each other on Sunday. We're meeting at the Mall in Rockford. Should be fun. we're really excited about it. It seems like it's been longer than a month though.

But anyway, i'm just rambling. I am very happy though. Mah Hair's growing back o.o..random. but anyway

End post.

Haircut.

2007-07-13T00:14:31Z

So...my uh...Mom decided to take my advice and cut my hair xD. But uh...yeah. so...It's kinda short. Like Skinhead short. little bit shorter than I like. But Hey, It'll grow back eh? Yup..Just thought i'd let everyone know.

Matt..

2007-07-12T07:45:22Z

Ya know? This whole time since it's happened. I haven't thought about it. Not that I've forgotten about it. But I haven't thought about it much. I think about him. the type of person he was when he was around me. It took me this long to realize that he's never coming back. To see that picture of him.

Once I saw that picture, I felt this sadness. Not the kind of sadness that you get when your gf/bf breaks up with you. Not the kind of sadness when You lose one of your best friends because of a fight.

The sadness you get when you lose someone that's almost like family to you. The one that you HOPE someday you can get rid of, but it doesn't ever feel like it.
I didn't cry at the funeral. i didn't cry at the wake. I wanted too, but I couldn't. Not because there were people around. Not because I didn't love Matt.

I really don't know why I didn't. I felt like it. I started to tear up. But I just couldn't cry. But when I saw that picture. Him Smiling. I thought of how we'll never see that again. I'll never see that again. Not from him. Not from anyone. Because no one could do it like him. No one could a smile on your face like he could. He could just be walking by you, and you could be having the shittiest day of your life. And You couldn't help but smile because he was doing something goofy, or even the fact that you KNEW he was there.

I didn't cry at all. Not until today. I was one of the first to hear what happened that Saturday morning. I didn't cry then. I was in shock. not until today did I realize it. how much I'm going to miss him.

ich_bin_gott89 @ 2007-06-30T12:55:00

2007-06-30T17:57:59Z

So. Hoople came back from the hospital yesterday. At a time when i should have felt happiness and angst. I didn't. I didn't feel anything. I mean. He's a really good friend of mine...I just don't...Idk. It's a weird feeling. I want to see him but...not really that much. I can't control how I feel but I still feel like a terrible friend. I haven't seen him in over a month and when he's so excited to see all of his friends again. I'm just not that excited to see him.

I don't know. Just something I've been thinking about for awhile.

Anyway. that's about it.

End Post.

ich_bin_gott89 @ 2007-06-22T15:28:00

2007-06-22T20:28:57Z

Sometimes I seriously consider doing stupid things.

ich_bin_gott89 @ 2007-06-08T22:13:00

2007-06-09T03:13:14Z

OMG A POST FROM ME? AMAZIIIIING! i know, but that's it xD

ich_bin_gott89 @ 2007-04-28T10:11:00

2007-04-28T15:12:10Z

One of my best friends died last night. What a wonderful week.

ich_bin_gott89 @ 2007-04-12T16:19:00

2007-04-12T21:22:50Z

I just thought I'd update. Not much is up with me I guess..Today could've been better.

Yesterday definately could have been. But there's not really much to say.

Life isn't the best as of late.Especially for t being the end of the year. Heh

But who said life ws fair rigt? right.

Oh, Kurt Vonnegut died yesterday. Or so it goes.

That was my little tribute to one of the greatest writers of all time.

Yeah, updated I suppose.

ich_bin_gott89 @ 2007-04-11T19:47:00

2007-04-12T00:47:07Z

Oh, it doesn't matter, it only hurts to think about it

Joooooooooooooooob!

2006-12-05T01:15:47Z

Hahaaaa, yeeeah, taht's right, Spencer now works at Supervalue! Stocker, Bagger, Facer, yuuup! It's awesome, I knooooows! okay, so I hear it sucks, but, money is money ^.^;;; and im liking that Idea! Buuut yeah, should get...depending if my hours change, 96 dollars every two weeks, which uh, isn't that much, but that's for two days of work each week lol. But yeah, you all needed to know that!

Peace-Love-Unity

John Donne Poem

2006-11-23T03:31:24Z

Death Be Not Proud, Though Some Have called Thee, Mighty and Dreadful, for thou art not so, for those whom thou thinkst, thou dost overthrow, Die not poor death, for yet can'st thou kill me